Queer Secrets

Jun 03

Jun 02

Image text: [I call myself pansexual, and I’m attracted to so many people, so many different kinds of people, but sometimes I worry that I don’t actually want sex, I just want to get off on my own. Maybe it’s just because I can’t trust people. ]

Image text: [I call myself pansexual, and I’m attracted to so many people, so many different kinds of people, but sometimes I worry that I don’t actually want sex, I just want to get off on my own. Maybe it’s just because I can’t trust people. ]

Jun 01

(Image: black and white photo of a girl on a bench with a boy’s arm around her, she’s holding hands with another girl behind her boyfriend’s back. Text: “We’ve been best friends for so long, and I know that you identify as lesbian, but your boyfriend is an exception. But still, lately I’ve noticed you emphasize your attraction to girls whenever you’re around me. I know when you’re flirting, I can tell. I know you’re always a flirt. And I know I’[m pansexual. I know I’ve been “the other girl” before. But I still don’t like you that way. We’re such good friends. Can’t that be it?”)

(Image: black and white photo of a girl on a bench with a boy’s arm around her, she’s holding hands with another girl behind her boyfriend’s back. Text: “We’ve been best friends for so long, and I know that you identify as lesbian, but your boyfriend is an exception. But still, lately I’ve noticed you emphasize your attraction to girls whenever you’re around me. I know when you’re flirting, I can tell. I know you’re always a flirt. And I know I’[m pansexual. I know I’ve been “the other girl” before. But I still don’t like you that way. We’re such good friends. Can’t that be it?”)

[rainbow on black background with text: I’m a lesbian and I have this huge crush on my best friend. She’s bi, but she likes guys more than girls. So nothing would happen between us, most likely. Besides, I’m not good enough for someone as amazing as her. Actually I feel like I’m not good enough for anyone, to be honest. All I know is, she’s so beautiful. I just want her to be mine. That’s just wishful thinking, though. Really, why would she like someone like me?]

[rainbow on black background with text: I’m a lesbian and I have this huge crush on my best friend. She’s bi, but she likes guys more than girls. So nothing would happen between us, most likely. Besides, I’m not good enough for someone as amazing as her. Actually I feel like I’m not good enough for anyone, to be honest. All I know is, she’s so beautiful. I just want her to be mine. That’s just wishful thinking, though. Really, why would she like someone like me?]

May 31

Image text: [I love my girlfriend, but all I want is to have other partners too. She knows I’m poly, but she gets insecure about it. How do I show her it’s going to be alright? How do I branch out and find other people?]

Image text: [I love my girlfriend, but all I want is to have other partners too. She knows I’m poly, but she gets insecure about it. How do I show her it’s going to be alright? How do I branch out and find other people?]

May 30

(Brick Wall Painted in Rainbow Colors, with white text reading: “What we had was more than I could ever ask for, Planning our future together was the closest I’ve ever felt to happiness and security, I know that romantic relationships aren’t the most important thing and that I shouldn’t care, But I want to feel that happiness again, How can people tell me it isn’t important when it’s the only thing I’ve ever felt happy about? But everyone wants the pretty, feminine, confident girlfriend and I’m none of those things. So I guess it doesn’t really matter what I want because it’s never going to happen”)

(Brick Wall Painted in Rainbow Colors, with white text reading: “What we had was more than I could ever ask for, Planning our future together was the closest I’ve ever felt to happiness and security, I know that romantic relationships aren’t the most important thing and that I shouldn’t care, But I want to feel that happiness again, How can people tell me it isn’t important when it’s the only thing I’ve ever felt happy about? But everyone wants the pretty, feminine, confident girlfriend and I’m none of those things. So I guess it doesn’t really matter what I want because it’s never going to happen”)

May 29

[Image description: Microsoft Word document with the words “I have a crush on my straight best friend. He’s my only male friend, too. I don’t want to ruin things between us, but he makes it so fucking hard.” typed.]

[Image description: Microsoft Word document with the words “I have a crush on my straight best friend. He’s my only male friend, too. I don’t want to ruin things between us, but he makes it so fucking hard.” typed.]

May 28

[image: close up shot of man in half drag makeup- one half fully feminized and the other half fully masculine. text: “I have been genderfluid since middle school, but recently identified myself as one during my first year of college, but most of the time, I feel more comfortable as a boy. Enough to wish one night that I would magically transform in the morning, as if I was never born as a girl. I badly wish I had the power to shift from one gender to another with ease, instead of being forced to make one permanent decision, and I change who I am with different people, reflecting to them. Sometimes I wonder if I know who I truly am. I’m scared I won’t find someone who will love me for my fluidity, or even find a partner to help me raise the children I will adopt in the future. I am pansexual, but most of the time, I want a girl to spoil and be a gentleman to. I want to give her all the love she deserves, and for her to do the same for me. I also want to be the father, to call my little girl my princess, have her on my shoulder to watch a parade, and even have a cute awkward father/daughter tea party that they do in movies. I’m scared that I won’t be able to experience any of this. How many people are willing to be with someone like me? What if my family doesn’t accept me? They already complain about the fact that I like to wear cologne and want to cut my hair short. I just feel so alone sometimes, and I don’t think I will ever get over this. I just want someone to talk to. Thank you for reading.”]

[image: close up shot of man in half drag makeup- one half fully feminized and the other half fully masculine. text: “I have been genderfluid since middle school, but recently identified myself as one during my first year of college, but most of the time, I feel more comfortable as a boy. Enough to wish one night that I would magically transform in the morning, as if I was never born as a girl. I badly wish I had the power to shift from one gender to another with ease, instead of being forced to make one permanent decision, and I change who I am with different people, reflecting to them. Sometimes I wonder if I know who I truly am. I’m scared I won’t find someone who will love me for my fluidity, or even find a partner to help me raise the children I will adopt in the future. I am pansexual, but most of the time, I want a girl to spoil and be a gentleman to. I want to give her all the love she deserves, and for her to do the same for me. I also want to be the father, to call my little girl my princess, have her on my shoulder to watch a parade, and even have a cute awkward father/daughter tea party that they do in movies. I’m scared that I won’t be able to experience any of this. How many people are willing to be with someone like me? What if my family doesn’t accept me? They already complain about the fact that I like to wear cologne and want to cut my hair short. I just feel so alone sometimes, and I don’t think I will ever get over this. I just want someone to talk to. Thank you for reading.”]

May 27