Image: A photo of two people cuddling under a white comforter while their intertwined feet stick out at the bottom.

Text: I’m a heterosexual, homoromantic cis-female.

I am engaged to my wonderful fiancée, whom I like very much, but I wonder if I’m even capable of loving a man.

I am in love with my best friend.

I could never tell her. I could never have sex with her. But I want to cuddle her so badly and spend the rest of my life with her and hold her hand and stroke her hair and I am so, so worried I’ll scare her away because she’s gay, and I’m… not, I guess. Am I?

I want both of them in totally different ways.

Is that selfish? Am I a horrible person? Will I be alone for the rest of my life?

I don’t want an open relationship, I’m completely monogamous, but I feel like they both complete me in totally different ways.